He is gone....Aaron is gone. This is the last dessert he ate made by me before he left. He's in Perth, and he will be there for a solid one month or more. But after that, his job will have him based in Adelaide so we're doing another six months contract with our landlord before we move out to a place where we could call home. But for now, I'd prefer a shared house like this.
When I bake to distress myself, I have people to share with me. In return, we sometimes cook together and share food. I love sharing, it makes me feel warm. I hate being alone....I never knew I'd be so reliant of Aaron. Apparently, as time goes by and all the nomading around, we have just a small handful of friends. It's horrible to not have your family with you at such stage of your life and now your partner is gone and you are left with little friends.
These are chocolate coated Oreo truffles. It's basically cream cheese and finely crushed Oreo biscuits blended together. I don't know how others can make theirs so dark but I use 125g cream cheese and 8 pieces of whole Oreo biscuits, including the cream. And yet they are just greyish like but that's all I have left. These are made from leftovers from my Dulce de Leche Cheesecake, both the Oreo biscuits and the cream cheese. You can choose to coat them in milk chocolate or white chocolate for a better contrast in colour. I did half half each and place remaining melted chocolates into a piping bag and just pipe random stripes on the dried 'Oreo Truffles on Stick'.
I hate myself for always having issues with Aaron when he was around. I felt we didn't appreciate each other enough. I shed tears when I sleep every night when I think about him being away from me. I hate how his room felt when I step in to tidy it, cold and quiet. I hate how I cannot share my cosy bed with anyone else. I hate how weak I am.
I'm taking over Aaron's part-time, doing a waitressing job in a restaurant 5 minutes away from my house. The pay is relatively good and I'm glad I'm bringing money in while waiting. Did I mention, to walk to work, you have to walk through this huge park and everything gets dark at 4pm because it's winter now. Every time I walk home from work, I run across the park. I'm terrified at the thoughts about how a handful of people tell me it's not safe to walk across the park at night and so forth....I run and run and run until I safely reach home. With my takeaway, a quick shower and eating dinner at 11:30pm....No, it doesn't feel good at all but I am happy Aaron started work already and is living very comfortably in Perth, he has plenty of friends there. I'd never have to worry and he'd never miss me when he has friends. I am very happy as long as he is happy.
It's always like that...when he has friends with him to hang out, he calls you thrice a day and then the call slowly dwindled to one and to none if you don't call him. I know we can never do a long distance relationship because of issues like that, don't talk about test of faith. Anyway, he's just too busy and occupied with work and has no time for anything else. He just gets home after work, dinner, shower and calls me and sleep. I feel for him....I know he is tired but I can't do anything to help him... I'm just having mixed feeling right now...I really don't know what I'm babbling. It's like you have just popped fries with ice cream into your mouth, it's a yum-yuck feeling.
Sorry, I disgress. Back to the Truffles-on-Stick, as usual, I dried it on my colander just like my previous cake pops because I don't have styrofoam boxes. They work well but turning them from time to time helps in drying quicker.
Couldn't resist eating them while taking the pictures. These are best served chilled.
(makes 12 pops)
125g cream cheese
8 pieces whole Oreo biscuits, pulsed with the cream until very very fine
Mix the cream cheese and finely crushed Oreos until combined and form 12 parts. Chill them until they are easier to manage and roll them in between your palms to form perfect balls. Freeze them while you get along melting both chocolates in separate cups. I microwave my chocolates first in ramekins (each of 1/2 cup capacity) and place them directly in a pan filled with simmering water. Just make sure you don't get water in the chocolates else they'll sizzle. My ramekins were small but high so it makes the dipping a lot easier and you need to use less chocolates and less leftovers.
Four ingredients are all you need to make these Oreo-pops, so easy to make and looks fantastically gorgeous! Make some!
p/s: I just wanna let you guys know that this whole one-month-in-Perth thingy happened a while ago so please, please, do not feel like you are obliged to console me and leave comments of encouragement. I never felt like the whole world is upon me and everyone owes me a fair share in life. I felt out of place to say so because kindness is never a necessity but you know, just in case, some of you out there, feel so, please don't be. You're fine. By now, we are both fine and I am a lot more settled, emotion-wise and when I wake up to not have him around every morning, that is the reality check.